a few things i forgot...

*i got some new ringtones for my phone... so now, if you call, it rings cyndi lauper's good enough, which makes me happy... i also got switch by will smith... when i change it to that, i might not answer my phone anymore because i'll be dancing... so if you call, and i don't answer, call again and let my dance party continue!

*this one is not one i take lightly...

while i was sitting in the crazy traffic, i got a phone call from one of my old youth girls... i can assure you that i've done the worst job at keeping in touch with all of them... it was one of those things that when they all graduated and went to college, they grew up so much... and i didn't keep up with most of them then, and now, i'd have no idea where most of them are...

jessica is one that i actually keep up with on a fairly regular basis... we talk once every six to nine months... we usually talk about her boyfriend (i can't remember if they're engaged yet, but they're planning on getting married next summer, i think)... and about my lack of settling down...

so i'm sitting in traffic, and my phone rings... "good enough... for me... good enough... it's good, good enough for me... yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah..." and i look down and see that it's her... and i was really excited to be getting a random fun phone call while sitting in insane traffic...

hello?

and i hear it... there's sadness mixed with a tear-filled voice... robyn??

what's wrong? what happened?

lydia was killed in a car accident friday night.

lydia's mom and i taught their sunday school class together... she was the one, who by appearances, was the least drama of all of them... those girls got in fights a lot... they had grown up together and seen each other through a lot of good times and a lot of bad times... the trouble is, they would remember the wrongs suffered too often... that's the way it is with teenage girls... sometimes knowing each other well opens itself up to being more of ammunition and less of compassion and understanding...

but lydia always seemed above it... she knew what was going on, but she never got too involved... she was a great kid... smart, athletic, and the peacemaker... that's what i always saw, anyway...

i honestly had no idea what she's been up to in life... i'm thinking she might have been driving home after her finals...

and i have no words... the funeral is thursday... there's absolutely no way that i can get there for the funeral... so sad...